but will it ever stop hurting?

Sometimes, you feel in the depths of your pain
like this feeling will never go away.
the knot in your chest.
The negative voices in your head.

It feels permanent
like it’s feeding off your discomfort,
dining out on your ache.
If only it would stop,
just for a second.
Stop the pain.
Stop the discomfort.

You try.
You try so hard to feel it
because that’s what they say, right?
Feel it to heal it.
If you’re overthinking,
there must be unprocessed emotions.

So you do.
You feel it.
You sit in it.
You face it.
But it doesn’t heal.
So you wonder how do I go deeper?
Because it already hurts.

You look around at others
and wonder how they carry on.
They don’t seem to feel this ache,
this fog, this knot.
Maybe it’s just you.
Maybe no one else understands.

You try to control it.
You squeeze your eyes shut and visualise peace.
Manifest your way out of it.
Over and over again.
But still, the ache is there.

They say pain is part of being human
and it is.
Some feel it more often.
But no one escapes it.
Pain is relative.
You cannot measure someone else’s threshold.

Still, it’s hard. So hard.
But here’s what’s also true
it will stop.
Even for a moment.
A breath.
A flicker of peace.
It might return
maybe hours later, maybe days
but it will stop.

And in that,
you are still loved.
In spite of the ache.
Because of it.

Even when the pain lingers for weeks,
when it feels endless,
you will come out the other side.
Maybe not the way you expect.
Maybe quietly.
But you will.

And no
this doesn’t make it any easier in the moment.
To sit with the ache, the fear,
the discomfort, the not-knowing.
But you are not alone.

We all have it - in different ways.
Some show it.
Some don’t.
Some overcome it.
Some get swept under.

No one is better or worse.
Pain isn’t a competition.
It’s a part of being human.

Just by sitting with it for a second,
even numbing or distracting
because it feels like too much
you are doing so well.

You are not broken.
You are not unworthy.
You are not unlovable.

You are human.
You are feeling.
You are surviving.

And yes
at some point,
maybe not today,
maybe not tomorrow
but eventually
it will stop hurting.